This has been a very emotional week...and our emotions have been everyone you could imagine. We've experienced joy, sorrow, fear, relief, panic, peace, love and everything else you can think of. It's been a long week and we are thrilled to be headed home tomorrow. We miss our boys, friend and family terribly but we have enjoyed this time with Tabbi to learn her and have her learn us. She's a sweet girl, full of life and energy and we are so excited to see what God has redeemed her to do in this world. I will say, for better or worse, she will fit in fine at the Fullington house because she has all the passion required to make the cut!
We have overcome even more obstacles in the last two days. Tabbi will now ride in a car facing forward rather than burying her head and hiding her face. She has learned to eat and chew cheerios and french fries and to feed herself with a spoon. She even had a bath tonight with very minimal fussing! She splashed, played with her toys and sat in the water. The trick, of course, was "Jesus Loves me".....why I didn't think to include Him from the beginning, I have no idea.
My brain is scattered and my body is tired. I am both excited and anxious to start our long journey home. Thank you for all of your love, support and prayers. Please remember us as you lay down tonight because that is about the time we will be heading to the airport. Please pray for our safety as well as Tabitha's patience and cooperation with the long trip. We are so excited to see everyone of you just as soon as we can!
Friday, August 16, 2013
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Making Strides
We have made a lot of strides the last day and a half....and taken a lot of steps and done a lot of strolling. Tabbi really likes being outside...even if it is 90 degrees. It's not a whole lot cooler inside here so we just take her out side. Yesterday she chased more bubbles and we found a little play ground where she really liked swinging.
She has also learned to feed herself grapes, bananas and kiwi which is a HUGE step. Tabbi is learning to communicate with us in her own little ways. This morning when she needed a diaper change she just climbed on the couch next to me, laid down and grinned. When she wants to go outside she climbs into the stroller. When we put her shoes on and strap her in she says "bye bye bye" over and over. Eating gets easier every time we do it and that is encouraging.
Yesterday Tabbi and her brothers saw each other and "talked" for the first time on Skype. They were thrilled to see her and she just wanted to pinch their faces through the screen. She was so excited and couldn't get close enough to make her happy! That warmed my heart....I hope they are that happy to be together this time next week. I know I will be happy they are together this time next week. No matter the ups and downs we face, this Fullington clan is a team and it feels a little like part of our team is missing and it's going to take the whole team to pull this off.
Thank you all for your prayers, yesterday was a hard day for me but today has been much better so far. We took Tabbi walking down town this morning so she could walk in the parks and see some grass. She thinks she wants to touch the water in the fountains till we get her close enough to touch it...then she screams, and she has chased every pigeon we could find in Sofia! She gets very excited when she sees the birds and all the dogs around the city so we are hopeful that she will love Miss Chloe when we get home....it may take Chloe a little longer to decide!
We love you all and can't wait to see you when we return home this weekend. Tomorrow we go to the embassy for our exit interview and on Friday we pick-up all of our documents we will need at immigration....we are getting closer and closer to reuniting our family and starting on the road toward normal. Thank you all for all you've done for us this far.
She has also learned to feed herself grapes, bananas and kiwi which is a HUGE step. Tabbi is learning to communicate with us in her own little ways. This morning when she needed a diaper change she just climbed on the couch next to me, laid down and grinned. When she wants to go outside she climbs into the stroller. When we put her shoes on and strap her in she says "bye bye bye" over and over. Eating gets easier every time we do it and that is encouraging.
Yesterday Tabbi and her brothers saw each other and "talked" for the first time on Skype. They were thrilled to see her and she just wanted to pinch their faces through the screen. She was so excited and couldn't get close enough to make her happy! That warmed my heart....I hope they are that happy to be together this time next week. I know I will be happy they are together this time next week. No matter the ups and downs we face, this Fullington clan is a team and it feels a little like part of our team is missing and it's going to take the whole team to pull this off.
Thank you all for your prayers, yesterday was a hard day for me but today has been much better so far. We took Tabbi walking down town this morning so she could walk in the parks and see some grass. She thinks she wants to touch the water in the fountains till we get her close enough to touch it...then she screams, and she has chased every pigeon we could find in Sofia! She gets very excited when she sees the birds and all the dogs around the city so we are hopeful that she will love Miss Chloe when we get home....it may take Chloe a little longer to decide!
We love you all and can't wait to see you when we return home this weekend. Tomorrow we go to the embassy for our exit interview and on Friday we pick-up all of our documents we will need at immigration....we are getting closer and closer to reuniting our family and starting on the road toward normal. Thank you all for all you've done for us this far.
Monday, August 12, 2013
Gotcha!
She has been bought at a price....paid in full....redeemed....rejoiced for and welcomed into the family....and is now preparing to go to her father's house where a place has been prepared for her. Adoption really is the most visible and tangible picture of Jesus's gospel we will ever see, from beginning to end, this side of heaven! Thank you all for your prayers and donations that have allowed us to be a part of this.
We have had a wonderful day, a day we had hoped for but certainly did not expect. Tabitha seemed very much to recognize Barry and fairly happy to see him when they brought her to us this morning.....she was ok with the fact that I came along too. Her nurse/caregiver was precious, true to Bulgarian tradition, she gave us a bundle of fragrant herbs for our good health and well being, had tears in her eyes as she hugged us all good bye and tossed out a cup of water on the side walk before us to symbolize a blessing that Tabitha would go forward in life freely and unhindered just as the river flows.
Tabitha was a little concerned about the cab ride at first but soon realized she liked the breeze in her face, watching the world go by and being part of all the sites and sounds her city had to offer. She enjoyed riding in her stroller and just walking holding hands. She conquered her sippy cup today and had so much apple juice she hardly ate any lunch. Her eating habits and abilities have improved by leaps and bounds since we were last here. We have sat down to feed her three times today and she has not fussed at all, thrown a single fit or seemed anxious about anything.
We had to take her to the doctor for and exit exam and it landed smack in the middle of her nap time so we arrived back to the hotel with an overly tired baby that caught a 5 minute cat nap in the cab and we all know what that means....there was no laying down when we got back. I think she slept about 30 minutes and was done! She was still in a good mood and happy to play....as long as she got her way about everything...lol! We blew bubbles on the balcony and they were a hit...I hope I brought enough to last the week, we looked and played with new sticker books, watched a little Tom and Jerry, explored the apartment and danced to the music on LazyTown. She hated her bath but we made it through and she thought lotion time at the end was a pretty good reward.
All in all it has been a good day. God has made His face to shine on us...but I feel the enemy hard at work trying to rob me of my joy, make me doubt my ability, through Christ, to be enough mother, enough wife and enough provider to make this work.I feel him pushing anxiety and panic towards me and causing me to doubt the future...even after such a good day. Thank you all for your faithfulness to pray for us and please continue to pray for Jesus to guide our steps as we go. I also ask that you pray Satan would get behind us and that he must flee from our family by the authority of Jesus.
Thank you again for your love, prayers and support. We feel them and we need them, we certainly couldn't walk this road alone. Please be prepared to walk with us when we arrive home as well since we don't know what to expect and we will need you all. Thanks again!
We have had a wonderful day, a day we had hoped for but certainly did not expect. Tabitha seemed very much to recognize Barry and fairly happy to see him when they brought her to us this morning.....she was ok with the fact that I came along too. Her nurse/caregiver was precious, true to Bulgarian tradition, she gave us a bundle of fragrant herbs for our good health and well being, had tears in her eyes as she hugged us all good bye and tossed out a cup of water on the side walk before us to symbolize a blessing that Tabitha would go forward in life freely and unhindered just as the river flows.
Tabitha was a little concerned about the cab ride at first but soon realized she liked the breeze in her face, watching the world go by and being part of all the sites and sounds her city had to offer. She enjoyed riding in her stroller and just walking holding hands. She conquered her sippy cup today and had so much apple juice she hardly ate any lunch. Her eating habits and abilities have improved by leaps and bounds since we were last here. We have sat down to feed her three times today and she has not fussed at all, thrown a single fit or seemed anxious about anything.
We had to take her to the doctor for and exit exam and it landed smack in the middle of her nap time so we arrived back to the hotel with an overly tired baby that caught a 5 minute cat nap in the cab and we all know what that means....there was no laying down when we got back. I think she slept about 30 minutes and was done! She was still in a good mood and happy to play....as long as she got her way about everything...lol! We blew bubbles on the balcony and they were a hit...I hope I brought enough to last the week, we looked and played with new sticker books, watched a little Tom and Jerry, explored the apartment and danced to the music on LazyTown. She hated her bath but we made it through and she thought lotion time at the end was a pretty good reward.
All in all it has been a good day. God has made His face to shine on us...but I feel the enemy hard at work trying to rob me of my joy, make me doubt my ability, through Christ, to be enough mother, enough wife and enough provider to make this work.I feel him pushing anxiety and panic towards me and causing me to doubt the future...even after such a good day. Thank you all for your faithfulness to pray for us and please continue to pray for Jesus to guide our steps as we go. I also ask that you pray Satan would get behind us and that he must flee from our family by the authority of Jesus.
Thank you again for your love, prayers and support. We feel them and we need them, we certainly couldn't walk this road alone. Please be prepared to walk with us when we arrive home as well since we don't know what to expect and we will need you all. Thanks again!
Monday, April 29, 2013
Psalm 33
It has been a tough weekend for me. In the process of trying to nail down exactly when we can expect to go pick Tabitha up I have read many more stories that had six month waits between trips than the three months we have been praying for. In my discouragement I remember Mr. Jim, our agent at Small World, telling Barry and I not to put all of our trust in everyone else's story because their story is not our story...for better or worse....our story is our story. That shook me back into reality and reminded me where MY hope belongs. I was drawn to Psalm 33 early Saturday morning, many of your will understand the significance of that before I tell you what I found, the rest of you will have to keep reading!
Psalm 33
1. Sing joyfully to the Lord, you righteous; it is fitting for the upright to praise Him, 2. Praise the Lord with the harp; make music to Him on the ten string lyre. 3. Sing to Him a new song; play skillfully, and shout for joy. 4. For the word of the Lord is right and true; He is faithful in all He does. 5. The Lord loves righteousness and justice; the earth is full of His unfailing love. 6. By the word of the Lord were the heavens made, their starry host by the breath of His mouth. 7. He gathers the waters of the sea into jars; He puts the deep into storehouses. 8. Let all the earth fear the Lord; let all the people of the world revere Him. 9. For He spoke, and it came to be; He commanded, and it stood firm. 10. The Lord foils the plans of the nations; He thwarts the purposes of the peoples. 11. But the plans of the Lord stand firm forever, the purposes of His heart through all generations. 12. Blessed is the nation whose God is the Lord, the people he chose for his inheritance. 13. From heaven the Lord look down and sees all mankind; 14. from his dwelling place He watches all who live on earth - 15. He who forms the hearts of all, who considers everything they do. 16. No king is saved by the size of his army; no warrior escapes by his great strength. 17. A horse is a vain hope for deliverance; despite all its great strength it cannot save. 18. But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear Him, on those whose hope is in His unfailing love, 19. to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine. 20. We wait in hope for the Lord; He is our help and our shield. 21. In Him our hearts rejoice; for we trust in His holy name. 22. May your unfailing love rest upon us, O Lord, even as we put our hope in you.
All of this reminded me that....
- I have to praise Him continually,
- He IS faithful and there is proof of it everywhere,
- He spoke all of this into action and He commands me to stand firm,
- The nation of Tabitha's birth is not in control of her present or her future, He is,
- He sees her at all times, even when I can't, and
- It is time for me to put all of my hope and trust in Him and let His unfailing love rest on me while I wait on Him.
I have also been reminded that the three years we were "supposed" to wait on her referral He shortened to two months, the three weeks we were "supposed" to wait for her referral to be translated He shortened to one and the two months we were "supposed" to wait to make our first trip He shortened to three weeks (we were not "supposed" to meet her till mid May). In the unlikeliness that her file would still be available from December to February, He kept her for us. He has Tabitha in His hands and us in His arms. Please hold me accountable to keep my faith in Him only, not myself and not in the stories of other families. Please join us in praying that the current Minister of Justice works diligently between now and the May 13th elections for the orphans trying to get home; that the elections do not slow down the process of the court system; and that the elected Minister of Justice has a heart for orphans and also works diligently on their behalf. Thank you all for your love and support in this process, I'm quite certain we wouldn't make it through without your encouragement.
Friday, April 26, 2013
Missing My Girl
It's been three weeks since we have seen and held Tabitha....a very long three weeks. I feel her absence every minute of the day. I look at her pictures over and over to memorize every inch of her and I watch her videos to remember the sound of her laugh. When Eli and LJ watch her videos they cry because they want to start being big brothers to her so badly. It is very hard to live between wanting to enjoy every minute of being with Eli and LJ but also wanting so badly to fast forward to the day we bring Tabbi home.
We received an update this week that she is happy, doing well and enjoying the warmer weather and playing outside. We can't wait to take her to the park, walk around the block and push her on the swings. There are so many things to show her and teach her here.
Her I 800 immigration approval was granted on April 16 and while we are so happy to be one step closer, we are discouraged that each step we take doesn't necessarily mean we are moving things along. I continue to follow the stories of other families that have adopted from Bulgaria and there are no definite time lines that we can follow. The time between I 800 and the Article 5 could be 1 week or 4, the time between Article 5 and court could be 3 weeks or 7 and the time between court and picking her up could be 3 weeks or 8. So we still have no idea when she could be home, maybe the end of June, maybe the middle of August. I'm a little discouraged today but then I remember that according to the "usual time frame" our referral should have taken three weeks and it took one, we should have had to wait two months to travel and we waited three weeks...we weren't supposed to leave for our first trip till the middle of May. Please join us in praying that God continues to shorten every step of Tabitha's journey home. She has so much love to come home to and we all feel like we are living on pause while we wait.
We received an update this week that she is happy, doing well and enjoying the warmer weather and playing outside. We can't wait to take her to the park, walk around the block and push her on the swings. There are so many things to show her and teach her here.
Her I 800 immigration approval was granted on April 16 and while we are so happy to be one step closer, we are discouraged that each step we take doesn't necessarily mean we are moving things along. I continue to follow the stories of other families that have adopted from Bulgaria and there are no definite time lines that we can follow. The time between I 800 and the Article 5 could be 1 week or 4, the time between Article 5 and court could be 3 weeks or 7 and the time between court and picking her up could be 3 weeks or 8. So we still have no idea when she could be home, maybe the end of June, maybe the middle of August. I'm a little discouraged today but then I remember that according to the "usual time frame" our referral should have taken three weeks and it took one, we should have had to wait two months to travel and we waited three weeks...we weren't supposed to leave for our first trip till the middle of May. Please join us in praying that God continues to shorten every step of Tabitha's journey home. She has so much love to come home to and we all feel like we are living on pause while we wait.
Friday, April 5, 2013
I know...
I know a lot more today than I did a week ago.
I know now that Tabbi is in a "good" orphanage and it is still a terrible place for children to grow up. There are too many children with too few workers. There are too many needs and not enough funds. There are babies that don't cry because they know it won't matter, there are toddlers that don't toddle because the workers don't have time to teach them and there are pre-school age children that ask every visitor if you are their momma.
I know there are people, like Maggie and the orphanage nurses and teachers, that passionately love these children and want desperately for them to find homes. They give as much of themselves as they can...and some give even more. They work tirelessly for a first step or a first word and rejoice when the parents finally come.
I know this world is much smaller than I thought. We are all the same, we long to be loved and to give our children better than we had. We want to see a world filled with justice and peace. I also know now the effects dictators and controlling political parties can have on the people of a nation and those effects can last for generations after the dictator or party are gone. I know there is passion and desire in all of us to live and there is a need in all of us for God.
I know, at the end of this terribly long and painfully short week, who goes before me, I know who stands behind, the God of angel armies is always by my side. I know who reigns forever, He is a friend of mine, the God of angel armies is always by my side. He loves Tabbi more than I ever will and He feels the same about every face I've seen this week...inside and outside the orphanage. I have seen Him everywhere I've looked this week, I have felt His presence in every step and I know He will bring me back for my daughter. I pray He will bring some of you for some of the faces I've seen this week too.
I know that Barry, Tabbi, Eli, LJ and I are loved by so many people and I am incredibly humbled by it. Thank you all for walking this journey with us through your gifts, your prayers and your love, it means more to us than we will ever be able to express. I know we have a long road ahead of us but Barry and I are thrilled and encouraged by the progress Tabbi has made this week. I thank you all for your commitment to seeing us through because we will not be able to do it alone. Thank you all again, from the bottom of our hearts.
I know now that Tabbi is in a "good" orphanage and it is still a terrible place for children to grow up. There are too many children with too few workers. There are too many needs and not enough funds. There are babies that don't cry because they know it won't matter, there are toddlers that don't toddle because the workers don't have time to teach them and there are pre-school age children that ask every visitor if you are their momma.
I know there are people, like Maggie and the orphanage nurses and teachers, that passionately love these children and want desperately for them to find homes. They give as much of themselves as they can...and some give even more. They work tirelessly for a first step or a first word and rejoice when the parents finally come.
I know this world is much smaller than I thought. We are all the same, we long to be loved and to give our children better than we had. We want to see a world filled with justice and peace. I also know now the effects dictators and controlling political parties can have on the people of a nation and those effects can last for generations after the dictator or party are gone. I know there is passion and desire in all of us to live and there is a need in all of us for God.
I know, at the end of this terribly long and painfully short week, who goes before me, I know who stands behind, the God of angel armies is always by my side. I know who reigns forever, He is a friend of mine, the God of angel armies is always by my side. He loves Tabbi more than I ever will and He feels the same about every face I've seen this week...inside and outside the orphanage. I have seen Him everywhere I've looked this week, I have felt His presence in every step and I know He will bring me back for my daughter. I pray He will bring some of you for some of the faces I've seen this week too.
I know that Barry, Tabbi, Eli, LJ and I are loved by so many people and I am incredibly humbled by it. Thank you all for walking this journey with us through your gifts, your prayers and your love, it means more to us than we will ever be able to express. I know we have a long road ahead of us but Barry and I are thrilled and encouraged by the progress Tabbi has made this week. I thank you all for your commitment to seeing us through because we will not be able to do it alone. Thank you all again, from the bottom of our hearts.
Thursday, April 4, 2013
"That was a good visit!"
Maggie gets tickled because every time we leave the orphanage Barry says "That was a good visit!", but he's always right. We see Tabbi two separate times everyday, once in the morning and again after lunch and she doesn't just learn and change every day, but every visit. Every visit she is a little more comfortable, a little more adventurous, smiles a little more, laughs a little more and learns something new. Yesterday we had to get Tabbi's picture made for her VISA and since people in Sofia walk everywhere we were able to take her for a walk. When we got back to the orphanage Barry played all the music on his phone for her and she loved it! She danced, she "sang" and she was so calm about everything while the music played. We are thrilled to know that she is a huge fan of Third Day and the David Crowder Band!
Her lunch was a little late today and after such a big morning she was very tired, it was a precious gift to rock our baby for the first time and have her almost fall asleep in our arms. When they brought her lunch we kept her music playing and she was like a different child. She took her time, enjoyed her food and even smiled at us between bites. When she would reach for the phone while she was eating Barry would say "no no" or "wait" and she was obedient. She is learning so much with every new experience...and so are we. We have learned that music soothes her soul and we will have music playing every minute of our next trip!
After lunch they let us watch her take a "shower" so we would know what to do. She loved it and bath time is going to be so much fun! She's also going to fit right in with the Fullington crew because she loved the water.
When we returned after lunch she sat with me and we looked at some of the books we brought along. We have one with pictures from home, one that sings music and one that makes farm animal sounds. She has always liked to use our finger to push the buttons and make the sounds work but today she got her little fingers working and was able to turn the board pages. We started with the pictures from home, she held my finger and poined to the people in the picture for me to say there name. We went all the way through and said everyone's name but she really thought "Kate Kate beau beau, Kate Kate beau beau, Kate Kate beau beau" had a really nice ring to it! Next we moved onto the farm animal book. She held my finger and we went through and named every thing in the book then we started over. Finally she put my finger on the pig and I pointed to the buttons and asked her which one was the pig and she put my finger right on the pig button. A smart girl indeed! We matched the pig, the rooster, the cow and the lamb. She wasn't as interested in matching the duck but those don't last long around our house anyway so it's fine.
After books she went back to music. Then Barry showed her how she could see herself on the phone and she was delighted....so, of course like any good daddy would, he showed her how she could see herself on the tablet...bigger is always better! While they played with the tablet he taught her to wave at herself and, playing the video back, we are pretty sure she said "hi" which is the first word she's said that we could understand!
So, as you can see, it was a big day! Now we face the biggest and hardest day of all, our last. I start to cry every time I think about leaving her, having to hug and hold her enough today to last us three or four months, and worrying that she will think we have abandoned her too. We are so excited to come home and see our boys and all of you but we will be leaving a part of our family and ourselves behind in Bulgaria. Please pray that we can enjoy today with her rather than crying all the way through it and please pray that Tabbi retains all the progress she's made this week and that the still small voice of Jesus will give her a peace and reassurance that we WILL be back....as soon as they let us come!
Her lunch was a little late today and after such a big morning she was very tired, it was a precious gift to rock our baby for the first time and have her almost fall asleep in our arms. When they brought her lunch we kept her music playing and she was like a different child. She took her time, enjoyed her food and even smiled at us between bites. When she would reach for the phone while she was eating Barry would say "no no" or "wait" and she was obedient. She is learning so much with every new experience...and so are we. We have learned that music soothes her soul and we will have music playing every minute of our next trip!
After lunch they let us watch her take a "shower" so we would know what to do. She loved it and bath time is going to be so much fun! She's also going to fit right in with the Fullington crew because she loved the water.
When we returned after lunch she sat with me and we looked at some of the books we brought along. We have one with pictures from home, one that sings music and one that makes farm animal sounds. She has always liked to use our finger to push the buttons and make the sounds work but today she got her little fingers working and was able to turn the board pages. We started with the pictures from home, she held my finger and poined to the people in the picture for me to say there name. We went all the way through and said everyone's name but she really thought "Kate Kate beau beau, Kate Kate beau beau, Kate Kate beau beau" had a really nice ring to it! Next we moved onto the farm animal book. She held my finger and we went through and named every thing in the book then we started over. Finally she put my finger on the pig and I pointed to the buttons and asked her which one was the pig and she put my finger right on the pig button. A smart girl indeed! We matched the pig, the rooster, the cow and the lamb. She wasn't as interested in matching the duck but those don't last long around our house anyway so it's fine.
After books she went back to music. Then Barry showed her how she could see herself on the phone and she was delighted....so, of course like any good daddy would, he showed her how she could see herself on the tablet...bigger is always better! While they played with the tablet he taught her to wave at herself and, playing the video back, we are pretty sure she said "hi" which is the first word she's said that we could understand!
So, as you can see, it was a big day! Now we face the biggest and hardest day of all, our last. I start to cry every time I think about leaving her, having to hug and hold her enough today to last us three or four months, and worrying that she will think we have abandoned her too. We are so excited to come home and see our boys and all of you but we will be leaving a part of our family and ourselves behind in Bulgaria. Please pray that we can enjoy today with her rather than crying all the way through it and please pray that Tabbi retains all the progress she's made this week and that the still small voice of Jesus will give her a peace and reassurance that we WILL be back....as soon as they let us come!
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